May 19.. I just want to preface this saying, I believe children from heaven. Straight from heaven. I love my kids. Every decision I make is because of my children. Being pregnant is one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. Sometimes I think I have PTSD from being sick, not having drs listen to be, being scared about not breathing or sleeping while growing a baby it's a scary thing. On the flip side, after being completely surprised I was pregnant again I felt overwhelmed with not being able to give each of my kids adequate time and care. I felt guilty for being upset since I know so many people longing for a family of their own and their situation not working for them.
The day I found out I was pregnant I had the worst allergies ever. I was completely emotional. Out of control hormones. Which is one of the first signs I get. Second I woke up and my fingers hurt of carpal tunnel. 😩 that was my first change I noticed with Aspen and caydence. I couldn't go to church. Colby took the kids to church and it was disaster. They didnt even make it to all over sacrament. I took three tests all positive. I told Colby is a fluster of tears. He was upset of the unplanned nature but warmed up quick because he loves kids and it a good dad.
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